Today, I had a lesson with a student.
We met in Yokohama. He was cool, and young! Only 23. Hooray. I'm glad it's not only old creepers on the FindAStudent.net site. I'm so surprised how many people have contacted me. It's unbelievable. In a week my profile already has like 170 views or something, and 6 students have contacted me. I guess it helps to be a blonde american when you want people to choose you to teach them native English. All I have to do is talk, too. And get there. For like 3000 yen an hour. It's such an excellent gig.
MAN I AM SO TIRED RIGHT NOW. But I'm going to stick to this goal. I am going to be more perserverent in my goals. I am going to blog every day for five minutes. I will.
I can't spell that word. I am so out of it.
I am going to Fuji-ku tomorrow. I mean today. In like two hours. I am going to sleep for an hour. I hope I wake up.
I wonder what I will wear.
I wonder why it is so hard to form sentences in English. It's like my brain is going back and forth between two vocabularies. Just kidding. I am so not fluent in Japanese yet.
でもぺらぺらになりたい！lol.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
My adventure while running today.
I love running. I just stumbled upon a beautiful park and a zoo hidden in a giant forest on top of a hill like a 6 minute walk from my house. All of these crazy animals I had never even seen before. They were so beautiful! And from the top of the hill, I could see the setting sun, with all of these glorious colors of pink and gold and orange, with little wisps of clouds trailing off...
Beyond that setting sun, on the way down the hill, I could see a machine demolishing apartment complexes. I don't know why I thought it was so beautiful, but it was fascinating to see an entire building get knocked down. Also awesome to watch the guys control the machines as if they were an extension of their arms and hands. The eerie appearance of the destroyed houses lined up in a solid row of rubble was fascinating to behold.
On the way back, I noticed that I had never seen the construction before, because there were these huge white pillars blocking all view of the construction and guards standing in front of it. Now I know what it was! There were huge white extended screens everywhere near the construction, blocking any possibility of seeing it, even from a nearby apartment window. How interesting! And considerate. But it is a little weird that it's so well hidden, and that I had never noticed.
I finally ran back and stopped to buy some salmon from a vendor a block from my house. I have never been to the vendor before, and I always want to buy salmon now but I never know where to buy it. She let me try the salmon. It is the best salmon I have ever eaten. I am eating it right now.
I love my life.
Beyond that setting sun, on the way down the hill, I could see a machine demolishing apartment complexes. I don't know why I thought it was so beautiful, but it was fascinating to see an entire building get knocked down. Also awesome to watch the guys control the machines as if they were an extension of their arms and hands. The eerie appearance of the destroyed houses lined up in a solid row of rubble was fascinating to behold.
On the way back, I noticed that I had never seen the construction before, because there were these huge white pillars blocking all view of the construction and guards standing in front of it. Now I know what it was! There were huge white extended screens everywhere near the construction, blocking any possibility of seeing it, even from a nearby apartment window. How interesting! And considerate. But it is a little weird that it's so well hidden, and that I had never noticed.
I finally ran back and stopped to buy some salmon from a vendor a block from my house. I have never been to the vendor before, and I always want to buy salmon now but I never know where to buy it. She let me try the salmon. It is the best salmon I have ever eaten. I am eating it right now.
I love my life.
My crazy amazing life. (I PERFORMED AT MITA SAI!!!!)
I SANG AT MITA SAI YESTERDAY!
I SANG AT MITA SAI YESTERDAY!!!
!!!!!!!
I had the best day ever.
OUR BASSIST WAS LATE THOUGH.I couldn't even understand how he was late. Now I understand why everyone would laugh when I said he was in our group. Damn Kimu-san. Everyone yesterday last night after the live was like 'omg he's ALWAYS late! That's just how he is.'
I was so stressed out.
Cause so many of my friends showed up, and I didn't want to keep them waiting forever, like I was never going to perform. But finally Kimu-san showed up, I threated like a thousand times that I was going to fight him (jokingly, kind of) and then we FINALLY GOT ON STAGE. And owned it.
I'm soooooo happy I performed with my rock group.
Folk Freedom is the best! Everyone is really nice, awesome, and fun! And there's so many hot boys in my circle. I could see some of them staring me in the eyes during my performance, and I got soooo much awesome feedback. It was really great to hear. It seems like everyone really enjoyed our set.
I am so happy I had the opportunity to do this! I've been wanting to sing for so long.
And I felt like a celebrity. SO many people I knew came.
Sang five Franz Ferdinand songs, rocked the stage, sweated all over the place, and had a blast dancing like a crazy person and singing the crap out of those songs. I HAD SO MUCH FUN. I also got to talk to the crowd in between songs half in English and half in Japanese, which was super fun because I actually KNEW WHAT TO SAY!
I sweated so much.
And threw my hat off like ten times.
And danced and flirted with my friends in the audience.
And like 5 guys came that I have a crush on who I invited.
So complicated yet awesome.
So many people came to see me! I can't thank you all enough.
And I kept running into people after the performance I knew or had seen me perform. And of course I ran into a bunch of friends one after the other. It was awesome. I felt like a star.
After, I checked out Mita Sai some with Ken, because he came all the way to Mita Sai to see me perform (!!!), ate an okay chocolate covered banana with corn flakes, sprinkles, chocolate cookies, and marshmellows on it (WHY WAS IT JUST OKAY??? It should have been the BEST!), and saw the rest of Folk Freedom's live, which included stuff like Radiohead, the Beatles, the Birthday, the Stooges, and more. My friends are awesome. All of the girls in our circle are so talented especially! I missed the end of the Radiohead set though, because I told Ken I would hang out with him for a bit, so we did and I wanted to make the last song, but I missed it :(
But I went back on my own, and then everyone was like COME LET'S DRINK!!!! Of course, you know, after the event. I was like "Should I hang out with Ken, or go?" But I wasn't really feeling that crazy into him today, and I have so many options, and I REALLY wanted to hang out with my circle and drink with them because they are FREAKING AWESOME and hilarious and I'm so happy I joined :P
So Ken was like "Go drink with your circle!" and I was like Okay!!! So I did.
And I brought Kalau and Bryce with me randomly, which was actually a good idea because they had a lot of fun with the people in our circle, and they both play instruments (guitar and drums) so they've been telling me they want to join anyway.
Then we all went drinking from 4:30 until 12 (omggggg).
Ate so much delicious food, bonded so much with my circle, and had a blast.
We had a nomi-kai, which is a drinking meeting, and then we had a nijikai, which is like a SECOND DRINKING EVENT. Everyone went to the second drinking event too. It was so much much much much fun. The second one was only 1000 yen too, for some reason. How excellent. First one was a bit expensive though D: But it was so worth it and it included DELICIOUS DINNER.
Plus, I sit with the sempai table. I don't know why, but I do. I guess I am a sempai since I am a third year. But I don't feel like one since I am a third year and I am always confused on what's going on. But eventually I figure things out. ^_^
Afterwards, I came with this awesome freshman who I forgot the name of on the Mita Sen. He speaks like, perfect English. He's weird, but I like him. He's entertaining and always very nice. Afterwards, Taylor and Grace called me and I came and hung out with them and they were super drunk and so was I.
We all drank some more and went to karaoke at 2 am with Taylor Martin , Kalau Almony, Grace Yang, and Bryce Saito. (haha, this is taken and expanded from a facebook status update.)
I was SOO tired thoguh and I was like, falling asleep at karaoke. It was hilarious. The mikes in the place were awful too since it was the place we never go to.
I was SO drunk and tired afterwards, and it was really cold. Kalau was leading me back, and we got lost because we were looking for Bryce, who like weirdly ran off drunk. He's weirdly emo. It was confusing. We wandered around drunkenly down a bunch of stairs to places that we couldn't exit, which was freaky and it was SO COLD. But eventually we found our way back to the dorm.
I also fixed a huge misunderstanding with Grace. Grace and I never ever ever hang out, and I never hear from her, so I assume that she was just always not wanting to hang out with me. When in reality, she thought I was like, "too busy for her" or something, so she said she was trying to let me have my own life and not be to demanding of me since we go to the same school and we were friends before so she wanted me to make my own friends and not be too confining. Which I totally understand now, but I totally didn't see it! It was very confusing. We've not been communicating about anything or it especially, so that's really the problem. I just thought she like, hated me or something. But we made up and we figured things out and I'm super happy we did because that negative energy was totally eating me up a little inside. Like kind of fucking with my relationship with Grace and Kiyo and Taylor cause they always look like they're together and they don't invite me to shit.
But it's generally just because she didn't want to bother me.
IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW!
SO, at this very point in life, everything is pretty good. I started tutoring in English through this online website, and I have only had one lesson so far, which I will have to write about. I ended up getting paid 5000 yen to meet with this doctor for like 40 minutes, which is JUST INSANE. He even paid for my dessert too at this cafe. Weird. A bunch of other people have contacted me too, so hopefully I can be their teacher too!!! I want more money. I felt so rich after that lesson ^^
I have to help my sister with her college essays though today because she and my mom have really been bugging me about it, and I'm going to have work hard today though, because I have a bunch of projects to work on, and I don't want to be working on my Izumi Shikibu project on my birthday especially. CAN'T WAIT FOR MY BIRTHDAY BY THE WAY!!! It's next Tuesday!!!!
My life is awesome. At this very point.
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!
I SANG AT MITA SAI YESTERDAY!!!
!!!!!!!
I had the best day ever.
OUR BASSIST WAS LATE THOUGH.I couldn't even understand how he was late. Now I understand why everyone would laugh when I said he was in our group. Damn Kimu-san. Everyone yesterday last night after the live was like 'omg he's ALWAYS late! That's just how he is.'
I was so stressed out.
Cause so many of my friends showed up, and I didn't want to keep them waiting forever, like I was never going to perform. But finally Kimu-san showed up, I threated like a thousand times that I was going to fight him (jokingly, kind of) and then we FINALLY GOT ON STAGE. And owned it.
I'm soooooo happy I performed with my rock group.
Folk Freedom is the best! Everyone is really nice, awesome, and fun! And there's so many hot boys in my circle. I could see some of them staring me in the eyes during my performance, and I got soooo much awesome feedback. It was really great to hear. It seems like everyone really enjoyed our set.
I am so happy I had the opportunity to do this! I've been wanting to sing for so long.
And I felt like a celebrity. SO many people I knew came.
Sang five Franz Ferdinand songs, rocked the stage, sweated all over the place, and had a blast dancing like a crazy person and singing the crap out of those songs. I HAD SO MUCH FUN. I also got to talk to the crowd in between songs half in English and half in Japanese, which was super fun because I actually KNEW WHAT TO SAY!
I sweated so much.
And threw my hat off like ten times.
And danced and flirted with my friends in the audience.
And like 5 guys came that I have a crush on who I invited.
So complicated yet awesome.
So many people came to see me! I can't thank you all enough.
And I kept running into people after the performance I knew or had seen me perform. And of course I ran into a bunch of friends one after the other. It was awesome. I felt like a star.
After, I checked out Mita Sai some with Ken, because he came all the way to Mita Sai to see me perform (!!!), ate an okay chocolate covered banana with corn flakes, sprinkles, chocolate cookies, and marshmellows on it (WHY WAS IT JUST OKAY??? It should have been the BEST!), and saw the rest of Folk Freedom's live, which included stuff like Radiohead, the Beatles, the Birthday, the Stooges, and more. My friends are awesome. All of the girls in our circle are so talented especially! I missed the end of the Radiohead set though, because I told Ken I would hang out with him for a bit, so we did and I wanted to make the last song, but I missed it :(
But I went back on my own, and then everyone was like COME LET'S DRINK!!!! Of course, you know, after the event. I was like "Should I hang out with Ken, or go?" But I wasn't really feeling that crazy into him today, and I have so many options, and I REALLY wanted to hang out with my circle and drink with them because they are FREAKING AWESOME and hilarious and I'm so happy I joined :P
So Ken was like "Go drink with your circle!" and I was like Okay!!! So I did.
And I brought Kalau and Bryce with me randomly, which was actually a good idea because they had a lot of fun with the people in our circle, and they both play instruments (guitar and drums) so they've been telling me they want to join anyway.
Then we all went drinking from 4:30 until 12 (omggggg).
Ate so much delicious food, bonded so much with my circle, and had a blast.
We had a nomi-kai, which is a drinking meeting, and then we had a nijikai, which is like a SECOND DRINKING EVENT. Everyone went to the second drinking event too. It was so much much much much fun. The second one was only 1000 yen too, for some reason. How excellent. First one was a bit expensive though D: But it was so worth it and it included DELICIOUS DINNER.
Plus, I sit with the sempai table. I don't know why, but I do. I guess I am a sempai since I am a third year. But I don't feel like one since I am a third year and I am always confused on what's going on. But eventually I figure things out. ^_^
Afterwards, I came with this awesome freshman who I forgot the name of on the Mita Sen. He speaks like, perfect English. He's weird, but I like him. He's entertaining and always very nice. Afterwards, Taylor and Grace called me and I came and hung out with them and they were super drunk and so was I.
We all drank some more and went to karaoke at 2 am with Taylor Martin , Kalau Almony, Grace Yang, and Bryce Saito. (haha, this is taken and expanded from a facebook status update.)
I was SOO tired thoguh and I was like, falling asleep at karaoke. It was hilarious. The mikes in the place were awful too since it was the place we never go to.
I was SO drunk and tired afterwards, and it was really cold. Kalau was leading me back, and we got lost because we were looking for Bryce, who like weirdly ran off drunk. He's weirdly emo. It was confusing. We wandered around drunkenly down a bunch of stairs to places that we couldn't exit, which was freaky and it was SO COLD. But eventually we found our way back to the dorm.
I also fixed a huge misunderstanding with Grace. Grace and I never ever ever hang out, and I never hear from her, so I assume that she was just always not wanting to hang out with me. When in reality, she thought I was like, "too busy for her" or something, so she said she was trying to let me have my own life and not be to demanding of me since we go to the same school and we were friends before so she wanted me to make my own friends and not be too confining. Which I totally understand now, but I totally didn't see it! It was very confusing. We've not been communicating about anything or it especially, so that's really the problem. I just thought she like, hated me or something. But we made up and we figured things out and I'm super happy we did because that negative energy was totally eating me up a little inside. Like kind of fucking with my relationship with Grace and Kiyo and Taylor cause they always look like they're together and they don't invite me to shit.
But it's generally just because she didn't want to bother me.
IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW!
SO, at this very point in life, everything is pretty good. I started tutoring in English through this online website, and I have only had one lesson so far, which I will have to write about. I ended up getting paid 5000 yen to meet with this doctor for like 40 minutes, which is JUST INSANE. He even paid for my dessert too at this cafe. Weird. A bunch of other people have contacted me too, so hopefully I can be their teacher too!!! I want more money. I felt so rich after that lesson ^^
I have to help my sister with her college essays though today because she and my mom have really been bugging me about it, and I'm going to have work hard today though, because I have a bunch of projects to work on, and I don't want to be working on my Izumi Shikibu project on my birthday especially. CAN'T WAIT FOR MY BIRTHDAY BY THE WAY!!! It's next Tuesday!!!!
My life is awesome. At this very point.
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
I feel like writing about today, a random day in Japan. It just felt a little weird, like at some parts I was starring in my own twisted Japanese version of Twilight.
I'm feeling a little overwhelmed by all of the projects I have at the moment. Even right now, I really feel like writing this note, but I know I should be working on other things. But I really just want to write! D: I also want to write about this weekend, but I guess I'll have to put that off for later tonight or tomorrow. Haha. Luckily I have class at 2:45 tomorrow, so I shouldn't have too much trouble getting everything done tonight that I need to do.
Woke up around 9, should have gotten ready by 9:45, which is when I should have left to go to class (aka a meeting with my independent study advisor), but instead I was a little late due to miscellaneous circumstances like not finding certain notebooks and changing my clothes a couple times (I need to stop doing that!)
I was late to my meeting with my advisor, but I didn't really care, because I've decided stress takes a really shitty toll on my body and I don't want to have more of it by stressing out about being late all the time. When I'm late, feeling shitty about it really isn't going to help.
So I just breathed easily, and imagined my eyes were a video camera as I walked up stairs, elevators, down the street past vendors, businessmen, security guards, mothers with children, and other students. Sometimes I do that here, since I can't film people on the street and my individual interactions with everything I see every day. I wish I could. I kind of want to bring a video camera with me and pretend it's off, but just have it running the entire trip to school, and kind of fast forward through my day in a short video to show a typical trip to school. I feel like it would be really cool. But maybe kind of illegal. I have no idea.
Anyway, I talked about my individual project on Cosplay with my advisor, which went well because I had prepared a lot of information and research that I had done online yesterday, haha. I've been really bad about getting things done lately. I just don't want to work, and I have an intense amount of projects to think about (A research paper and presentation on the Mafia's influence in America(American Studies), A research paper and presentation on Izumi Shikibu's works (Japanese Lit), an art project where we make a book with photos and other art we've created, my cosplay project, a culture, cultural identity, and cultural awareness group project on Bilingualism, and a paper due tomorrow for Japanese Psychology.
My sensei definitely liked the online cosplay magazine I discovered, which you can take a look at here if you make an account super easily (for all you cosplay kids like me) http://www.cosmodeonline.com/
If you guys have an information about cosplay/cosplayers or if you know any cosplayers in the United States or Japan, please let me know! I need as many sources as I can get for interviews/survey/information.
After my meeting, I met this guy, Takeshi, for lunch. We met at one of the Halloween parties I went to two weeks ago with a lot of other awesome Keio kids :P We danced together for some time when everyone went clubbing after the party. He's super nice, and a great dancer! I wasn't sure though if it was going to be like, a lunch date, or like just friendly, so I was a little relieved when he suggested we eat in the cafeteria (aka cheaper and less pressure). We ended up sitting next to mutual friends randomly, but we didn't really talk to them much, we just talked the whole time about random things together, which was nice :) And my friend Tony showed up randomly and we all walked to my Japanese Literature class together.
On the way to class, we ran into the professor, who was actually running a little late considering we were going to get there straight when the bell was going to ring. We all chatted and I mentioned my woes about my stolen bicycle. We all went in, and sat down... and then I realized.
I forgot my computer in the cafeteria! X_x
Why do I keep losing everything? Do I have no brain? I guess I was just concentrating too hard on getting to class on time and talking to both Takeshi and Tony... Uber distracted.
I ran out of the classroom, mentioning to the professor somehow not awkwardly that I had forgotten my computer and he completely understood.
I got back to the cafeteria and went immediately to the table at which we had been sitting. Searched everywhere, including under people's stuff that had moved there since we left, and it was nowhere to be found! I freaked out. How embarrassing. And just scary as shit. There are so many things I could never replace if my computer was lost. And it would be SO expensive to replace X_X
I went to one of the cafeteria check-out ladies, not knowing who to ask for help. She luckily wasn't a bad person to ask, as she went into the cafeteria's office to ask for lost-and-found stuff for me, but there was nothing in the cafeteria lost and found. She was highly apologetic but honestly I was super freaked out. How could have someone stolen my computer in that sort of time, in the middle of a school cafeteria, and nobody noticed it, or even saw my computer?
She gave me a number for some kind of lost and found line on campus, but I was like ugh, my phone is dying, and I have no idea how to find this... I went back to the area I left my computer, and just kind of stood there in disbelief, searching again... and then the Japanese people there felt sorry for me, so one girl was like I'll take you to the lost and found! How nice.
She took me there and THERE WAS MY COMPUTER!!! D: Amazing. I was so happy.
I had neglected to bring my bag with me though, and they wanted proof that I was a student, so I had to go back to the classroom (Again!), run in and disrupt everything, grab my id, and run back to get my computer. All of the girls cheered. At least that was nice.
I feel so stupid sometimes...
The rest of class passed by boringly, I fell asleep in the class I had left like three times, which was like, the height of rude. And then I tried to unplug my computer from the floor plug, and then it wouldn't unplug, and I was like WHATTT and Tony tried to help me, and then another Japanese student came over and they were like, all gathered around trying to pull it out... Finally the teacher came over and he was like what are you guys doing? Turn it to the left! And it just popped right out.
I had a tough time today.
Made it through the rest of classes okay.
I was leaving to go home, a little later than the rest of everyone who gets out of fourth period because I went to the bathroom, then took my time responding to some texts, and then I put my ipod in, and decided to just play cool while walking past the guys who always hang out by the smoking area and the atms and the library (literally a gauntlet of stares, almost every day) and I was too busy rocking out mentally that halfway down the cobblestone hill I didn't even notice Yohei trying to get my attention. Finally he ran up and tapped my shoulder or something and I was like OH! hahaha.
Of course I had to run into him today too.
That's what made today feel like Twilight.
I feel conflicted. I don't think I am interested. I think it was a bit of a drunk mistake to hook up with him, and I don't want to feel obligated to continue things, just because they happened. But he started out totally friendly, and I don't ever want to be a bitch, so then I just kept talking to him and enjoying and whatever. Even when he reached over to twirl a piece of my hair carelessly I brushed it off.
But I just don't know. He said all he was doing was returning books, so I said I might as well come with him because it was nice and I didn't mind. I had time.
But after we left the library, he walked me to the station, and he was totally trying to put his arm around me and stuff, and I was like ehh. Not feeling it.
I don't think I want to do that.
I let him kiss me, though. Which I really shouldn't have. But I felt guilty.
I need to stop sending mixed messages. But he's so nice, I just don't think I want anything romantic with him... But I want to be friends with him. And I don't want him to hate me or something.
I don't know! D:
I must say though, I'm flattered by all of it despite the awkward situations I've been placed in. That's the problem. I can't help it.
I ran into a freakishly large amount of people on campus and walking home off campus and whatnot too, today. It was just strangely coincedental, all of the instances. Like running into Eiichiro in the station right when we were switching trains. And Tony again on the way home. I offered to cook him dinner because he has no money right now (like 1000 yen for the next week). So he came by and he took some rice I had made and we boiled some curry together. Lol. Exciting times.
Now i've been trying to do homework/research/writing, which has failed, and practice songs for the upcoming practice my rock circle has on Saturday. I am going to memorize all the words to all of these songs! I swear! D:
I hope I can continue to be a nice person. I don't want to turn into a bitch out of neccesity, or out of self-conceit/vanity.
I'm feeling a little overwhelmed by all of the projects I have at the moment. Even right now, I really feel like writing this note, but I know I should be working on other things. But I really just want to write! D: I also want to write about this weekend, but I guess I'll have to put that off for later tonight or tomorrow. Haha. Luckily I have class at 2:45 tomorrow, so I shouldn't have too much trouble getting everything done tonight that I need to do.
Woke up around 9, should have gotten ready by 9:45, which is when I should have left to go to class (aka a meeting with my independent study advisor), but instead I was a little late due to miscellaneous circumstances like not finding certain notebooks and changing my clothes a couple times (I need to stop doing that!)
I was late to my meeting with my advisor, but I didn't really care, because I've decided stress takes a really shitty toll on my body and I don't want to have more of it by stressing out about being late all the time. When I'm late, feeling shitty about it really isn't going to help.
So I just breathed easily, and imagined my eyes were a video camera as I walked up stairs, elevators, down the street past vendors, businessmen, security guards, mothers with children, and other students. Sometimes I do that here, since I can't film people on the street and my individual interactions with everything I see every day. I wish I could. I kind of want to bring a video camera with me and pretend it's off, but just have it running the entire trip to school, and kind of fast forward through my day in a short video to show a typical trip to school. I feel like it would be really cool. But maybe kind of illegal. I have no idea.
Anyway, I talked about my individual project on Cosplay with my advisor, which went well because I had prepared a lot of information and research that I had done online yesterday, haha. I've been really bad about getting things done lately. I just don't want to work, and I have an intense amount of projects to think about (A research paper and presentation on the Mafia's influence in America(American Studies), A research paper and presentation on Izumi Shikibu's works (Japanese Lit), an art project where we make a book with photos and other art we've created, my cosplay project, a culture, cultural identity, and cultural awareness group project on Bilingualism, and a paper due tomorrow for Japanese Psychology.
My sensei definitely liked the online cosplay magazine I discovered, which you can take a look at here if you make an account super easily (for all you cosplay kids like me) http://www.cosmodeonline.com/
If you guys have an information about cosplay/cosplayers or if you know any cosplayers in the United States or Japan, please let me know! I need as many sources as I can get for interviews/survey/information.
After my meeting, I met this guy, Takeshi, for lunch. We met at one of the Halloween parties I went to two weeks ago with a lot of other awesome Keio kids :P We danced together for some time when everyone went clubbing after the party. He's super nice, and a great dancer! I wasn't sure though if it was going to be like, a lunch date, or like just friendly, so I was a little relieved when he suggested we eat in the cafeteria (aka cheaper and less pressure). We ended up sitting next to mutual friends randomly, but we didn't really talk to them much, we just talked the whole time about random things together, which was nice :) And my friend Tony showed up randomly and we all walked to my Japanese Literature class together.
On the way to class, we ran into the professor, who was actually running a little late considering we were going to get there straight when the bell was going to ring. We all chatted and I mentioned my woes about my stolen bicycle. We all went in, and sat down... and then I realized.
I forgot my computer in the cafeteria! X_x
Why do I keep losing everything? Do I have no brain? I guess I was just concentrating too hard on getting to class on time and talking to both Takeshi and Tony... Uber distracted.
I ran out of the classroom, mentioning to the professor somehow not awkwardly that I had forgotten my computer and he completely understood.
I got back to the cafeteria and went immediately to the table at which we had been sitting. Searched everywhere, including under people's stuff that had moved there since we left, and it was nowhere to be found! I freaked out. How embarrassing. And just scary as shit. There are so many things I could never replace if my computer was lost. And it would be SO expensive to replace X_X
I went to one of the cafeteria check-out ladies, not knowing who to ask for help. She luckily wasn't a bad person to ask, as she went into the cafeteria's office to ask for lost-and-found stuff for me, but there was nothing in the cafeteria lost and found. She was highly apologetic but honestly I was super freaked out. How could have someone stolen my computer in that sort of time, in the middle of a school cafeteria, and nobody noticed it, or even saw my computer?
She gave me a number for some kind of lost and found line on campus, but I was like ugh, my phone is dying, and I have no idea how to find this... I went back to the area I left my computer, and just kind of stood there in disbelief, searching again... and then the Japanese people there felt sorry for me, so one girl was like I'll take you to the lost and found! How nice.
She took me there and THERE WAS MY COMPUTER!!! D: Amazing. I was so happy.
I had neglected to bring my bag with me though, and they wanted proof that I was a student, so I had to go back to the classroom (Again!), run in and disrupt everything, grab my id, and run back to get my computer. All of the girls cheered. At least that was nice.
I feel so stupid sometimes...
The rest of class passed by boringly, I fell asleep in the class I had left like three times, which was like, the height of rude. And then I tried to unplug my computer from the floor plug, and then it wouldn't unplug, and I was like WHATTT and Tony tried to help me, and then another Japanese student came over and they were like, all gathered around trying to pull it out... Finally the teacher came over and he was like what are you guys doing? Turn it to the left! And it just popped right out.
I had a tough time today.
Made it through the rest of classes okay.
I was leaving to go home, a little later than the rest of everyone who gets out of fourth period because I went to the bathroom, then took my time responding to some texts, and then I put my ipod in, and decided to just play cool while walking past the guys who always hang out by the smoking area and the atms and the library (literally a gauntlet of stares, almost every day) and I was too busy rocking out mentally that halfway down the cobblestone hill I didn't even notice Yohei trying to get my attention. Finally he ran up and tapped my shoulder or something and I was like OH! hahaha.
Of course I had to run into him today too.
That's what made today feel like Twilight.
I feel conflicted. I don't think I am interested. I think it was a bit of a drunk mistake to hook up with him, and I don't want to feel obligated to continue things, just because they happened. But he started out totally friendly, and I don't ever want to be a bitch, so then I just kept talking to him and enjoying and whatever. Even when he reached over to twirl a piece of my hair carelessly I brushed it off.
But I just don't know. He said all he was doing was returning books, so I said I might as well come with him because it was nice and I didn't mind. I had time.
But after we left the library, he walked me to the station, and he was totally trying to put his arm around me and stuff, and I was like ehh. Not feeling it.
I don't think I want to do that.
I let him kiss me, though. Which I really shouldn't have. But I felt guilty.
I need to stop sending mixed messages. But he's so nice, I just don't think I want anything romantic with him... But I want to be friends with him. And I don't want him to hate me or something.
I don't know! D:
I must say though, I'm flattered by all of it despite the awkward situations I've been placed in. That's the problem. I can't help it.
I ran into a freakishly large amount of people on campus and walking home off campus and whatnot too, today. It was just strangely coincedental, all of the instances. Like running into Eiichiro in the station right when we were switching trains. And Tony again on the way home. I offered to cook him dinner because he has no money right now (like 1000 yen for the next week). So he came by and he took some rice I had made and we boiled some curry together. Lol. Exciting times.
Now i've been trying to do homework/research/writing, which has failed, and practice songs for the upcoming practice my rock circle has on Saturday. I am going to memorize all the words to all of these songs! I swear! D:
I hope I can continue to be a nice person. I don't want to turn into a bitch out of neccesity, or out of self-conceit/vanity.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
I went on a trip this weekend! I went with my friend Yusuke (aka An-chan! ^^)(actually he's my RA, but we've become good friends), another awesome girl from my dorm, Elizabeth, who speaks phenomenal Japanese, and two of Yusuke's friends (they are Japanese)!
I SPOKE SO MUCH JAPANESE THIS WEEKEND MY HEAD EXPLODED.
Also, some highlights:
Wine tasting!
Saw beautiful こうよう！(fall leaves changing color like no other)
Saw Mount Fuji and took hella pictures!
Yamanote Sen ゲーム!
Dirty Japanese lessons!
沢山飲んだ！
イケメン！
Climbed a mountain path in Senshoukyo and saw the best scenery and こうよう ever.
(Onsen) おんせんはいった。
Tons of traffic, but 面白い話した。
LASTLY,
MET AN AWESOME GUY.
(ie: one of Yusuke's friends.)
:) :) :) :) :)
I feel like a nervous teenager with raging hormones. Haven't felt like this in a while.
I was trying to describe it to my friend, and I came up with this.
It's like,
being close to someone
not even touching them
but feeling a really intense energy.
And when you do touch,
it's fucking incredible.
Yeah.
Haha.
Heheheh.
Woo!
I'm super excited for the future.
Found out some shitty things today though. I'll have to pay 10,500 yen for the softbank bill (which is 100 dollars opposed to 1000) but it's annoying that they won't give me a full refund for something I didn't even do.
And my bike was either stolen/impounded. I'm going to the police tomorrow. It was too late by the time I got back to deal with it.
Why am I always losing my shit? D:
But I'm still not feeling too shitty because of my fluttering heart. <3
I SPOKE SO MUCH JAPANESE THIS WEEKEND MY HEAD EXPLODED.
Also, some highlights:
Wine tasting!
Saw beautiful こうよう！(fall leaves changing color like no other)
Saw Mount Fuji and took hella pictures!
Yamanote Sen ゲーム!
Dirty Japanese lessons!
沢山飲んだ！
イケメン！
Climbed a mountain path in Senshoukyo and saw the best scenery and こうよう ever.
(Onsen) おんせんはいった。
Tons of traffic, but 面白い話した。
LASTLY,
MET AN AWESOME GUY.
(ie: one of Yusuke's friends.)
:) :) :) :) :)
I feel like a nervous teenager with raging hormones. Haven't felt like this in a while.
I was trying to describe it to my friend, and I came up with this.
It's like,
being close to someone
not even touching them
but feeling a really intense energy.
And when you do touch,
it's fucking incredible.
Yeah.
Haha.
Heheheh.
Woo!
I'm super excited for the future.
Found out some shitty things today though. I'll have to pay 10,500 yen for the softbank bill (which is 100 dollars opposed to 1000) but it's annoying that they won't give me a full refund for something I didn't even do.
And my bike was either stolen/impounded. I'm going to the police tomorrow. It was too late by the time I got back to deal with it.
Why am I always losing my shit? D:
But I'm still not feeling too shitty because of my fluttering heart. <3
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