Mia was awesome, but...
The current band is the most terrifyingly creepy band i have ever seen in my life.
The gutiarist is super fat and took off his shirt, the bassist looks like a rapist with his receding hairline and his rapist glasses and chain... And the drummer is a super fat otaku with sweat pouring down his face...
And then the lead singer is this ... cute girl.
What the fuck? It looks like she is their rapist prey. And the audience took off their shirts. I am terrified. D:
Monday, January 31, 2011
Written on a sunny day in the middle of a run
Here we are in this world, not knowing anything about anything except what's in our minds
Sometimes we don't even know our own minds
It's important from time from time to open the blinds
and see what's outside
It's a matter of time,
no, a matter of rhyme
until i can really figure out what's in my mind
And with every sunrise, and with every goodbye
we learn that life isn't all tv or film
It's yours and it's mine
so live it and do what you want
you can set your soul free from the world, you can do what you want
but what you want is what YOU wants
As long as you live, you can never be free from yourself
And maybe your mind too
Sometimes we don't even know our own minds
It's important from time from time to open the blinds
and see what's outside
It's a matter of time,
no, a matter of rhyme
until i can really figure out what's in my mind
And with every sunrise, and with every goodbye
we learn that life isn't all tv or film
It's yours and it's mine
so live it and do what you want
you can set your soul free from the world, you can do what you want
but what you want is what YOU wants
As long as you live, you can never be free from yourself
And maybe your mind too
成人式 terror
You know that terrible feeling, the tightness at the back of your head that spreads to the sides, crushing with its evil grip..
It's how I feel now,riding this bus all by myself to an important japanese coming of age event. Surrounded by girls in beautiful kimono,i wonder if I am even worthy of entering the same place as them right now.I don't fit in in the least, and my friend who said he would come because he was also invited decided not to because he doesn't own a suit. I don't own a kimono either, but i'm brave so i figured i'd go. I'm going to be strong and hold it together, but I chose to come to this event thinking I would be okay and strong anyway... but it's hard.
This bus has completely come to a stop, too. No traffic moving in either direction. We'll see how it is when i get there!
It's how I feel now,riding this bus all by myself to an important japanese coming of age event. Surrounded by girls in beautiful kimono,i wonder if I am even worthy of entering the same place as them right now.I don't fit in in the least, and my friend who said he would come because he was also invited decided not to because he doesn't own a suit. I don't own a kimono either, but i'm brave so i figured i'd go. I'm going to be strong and hold it together, but I chose to come to this event thinking I would be okay and strong anyway... but it's hard.
This bus has completely come to a stop, too. No traffic moving in either direction. We'll see how it is when i get there!
More train phone drafts to myself :P
I just love standing on a busy street corner in downtown tokyo, wearing a cute outfit and my panda headphones, and chilling out to the endless stream of cars going past and people of all (asian）types gathered around me as I interpret the scene to donovan's sunshine superman's distinctly chill tripping american hippie beats. Only in Japan.
I write things on the train in my phone!!
Whenever I feel like it, I sometimes write about events or about my feelings in a draft in my keitai(usually on the train)
Here's one!
I love being a tourist on the train today. I've been taking pictures of everything, taking in my life and my surroundings, and I'm about to start writing postcards.
I'm going to go meet the friend i made at the phone shop to go see tokyo tower. I'm quite excited.
Life is good right now besides being sick.. Can barely sing. I went to karaoke last night with the international kids and i could barely squeeze a note out of my dying vocal cords. I had forgotten and went without considering it!
what did i say last night to that cute british dude in my dorm that i never see? Something to the effect of I'm gonna be living life anyway, might as well make it a good one and enjoy it! It felt quite wise. I guess i'm learning something every day here!
Here's one!
I love being a tourist on the train today. I've been taking pictures of everything, taking in my life and my surroundings, and I'm about to start writing postcards.
I'm going to go meet the friend i made at the phone shop to go see tokyo tower. I'm quite excited.
Life is good right now besides being sick.. Can barely sing. I went to karaoke last night with the international kids and i could barely squeeze a note out of my dying vocal cords. I had forgotten and went without considering it!
what did i say last night to that cute british dude in my dorm that i never see? Something to the effect of I'm gonna be living life anyway, might as well make it a good one and enjoy it! It felt quite wise. I guess i'm learning something every day here!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
OGMGFGGGGGGEEEEENMMNN!GGG!!!!!!
DONE WITH PAPERS!
This was the hardest finals of my life.
I had so much work to do! And for so long!
Guhhh!!!
I wrote (among so many other papers) a 17 page paper and 24 page paper!
I can't believe that.
That's just sick.
I've never done this much work in my life D:
HAPPY TO BE DONE AND FUCKING EXPLORE TOKYO AND GET SHITFACED AND CHILL WITH FRIENDS AND DO EVERYTHING I WANTED TO DO WHILE I WAS COOPED UP IN MY ROOM UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING BUT WRITE!!!!
Finally.
Going home for 12 days next Thursday, too. I'm excited!
YESSS BREAAAAAKKKK
DONE WITH PAPERS!
This was the hardest finals of my life.
I had so much work to do! And for so long!
Guhhh!!!
I wrote (among so many other papers) a 17 page paper and 24 page paper!
I can't believe that.
That's just sick.
I've never done this much work in my life D:
HAPPY TO BE DONE AND FUCKING EXPLORE TOKYO AND GET SHITFACED AND CHILL WITH FRIENDS AND DO EVERYTHING I WANTED TO DO WHILE I WAS COOPED UP IN MY ROOM UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING BUT WRITE!!!!
Finally.
Going home for 12 days next Thursday, too. I'm excited!
YESSS BREAAAAAKKKK
Saturday, January 15, 2011
I'm in the middle of finals, super tired and busy! I finished my Mafia paper today though. It was supposed to be 5-6 pages. Mine's 13. D: I guess it can't hurt.
I also ran to Musashi-Kosugi, in a way to celebrate finishing that paper. I've decided exercise should be a celebration of my ability to run, not a punishment for being fat. I'm going to reward myself with a way to lose weight.
Listening to a Psychology lecture from MIT that I have on my itunes podcasts... It's making me feel smart! I actually really like listening to lectures from that professor's Psych 101 class randomly, so I don't forget what happened in that class... I figure I should learn something as a psych major. And I always remember/memorize something different every time.
Now I'm going to write a paper on Karoushi, which is death by overwork. I'm not going to hopefully die from overworking this weekend though! I can do this! Good luckkkkk meee.
<3 Melissa
I also ran to Musashi-Kosugi, in a way to celebrate finishing that paper. I've decided exercise should be a celebration of my ability to run, not a punishment for being fat. I'm going to reward myself with a way to lose weight.
Listening to a Psychology lecture from MIT that I have on my itunes podcasts... It's making me feel smart! I actually really like listening to lectures from that professor's Psych 101 class randomly, so I don't forget what happened in that class... I figure I should learn something as a psych major. And I always remember/memorize something different every time.
Now I'm going to write a paper on Karoushi, which is death by overwork. I'm not going to hopefully die from overworking this weekend though! I can do this! Good luckkkkk meee.
<3 Melissa
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Making friends in Japan!
Recently, some of my friends here in Japan who are studying abroad have expressed concern that they haven't made so many Japanese friends. Or maybe they've made Japanese friends, but it hasn't gone beyond the expected keitai exchange and the promise to hang out and 飲みに行く or カラオケ or whatever suits the new friendship.
I felt like that a couple times, but really, lately I've been realizing I've made some good Japanese friends. It's nice. I'm learning about japanese culture, doing fun activites, and learning some japanese from them. Along with this, I've also realized that my 留学生 friendships are quite important as well. Even though I want to actively make a lot of good Japanese friends, my relationships with other exchange students is quite important because they are in the same boat as me and they're nice to turn to when I am feeling lonely or culture sick or just wanting to speak English.
I think I've gotten better at maintaining Japanese friendships now though. At the beginning, after some event, or clubbing, or whatever, I'd get all of these numbers in my phone in a language I can barely read (okay, I can read some Japanese, but names in Kanji are extremely difficult) and then I'd maybe follow up with one or two people, but it was hard to remember everyone and I'd get a call from someone later who I couldn't remember and didn't remember the name of so it was super embarrassing and nothing ever came of it.
Now I know that the best form if you want make someone into a friend is to text someone the day after meeting them, promising to hang out or do something, or maybe even making plans then! People are extremely willing and happy to meet you, especially if you're a foreigner and you can speak some Japanese (if you don't speak Japanese, of course you're still interesting, but I feel to a certain extent you will never get involved in any Japanese social circles because someone will always have to be translating for you and you'll never know the actual personality of someone else in their native language (believe me, people act completely differently and say completely different things while speaking japanese as opposed to english).
I may have a bit of an advantage (understatement) because I'm a white, blonde american who speaks some Japanese and has social skills and a love of music and goes to Keio and etc etc... I have a lot of things going for me here. I have a lot to talk about. People are always suprised by me. And think I'm "チョウきれい", but that's another subject entirely. I really need to write about flirting with Japanese guys sometime... It's a worthwhile subject to write about it.
I also really need to write about the sentiment of being blonde in Japan. It's a weird phenomenon that I'm experiencing. It made me not want to go back to brown, at least while I'm here. It's like I'm beautiful and magical just because I have blonde hair. People will openly stare (this is a)because I'm a foreigner, but it's also b)because of the hair), I've gotten hit on in the train, on the street, in bars (DUH)... but the amount is a little overwhelming. And even when I don't think anyone is thinking about me being a foreigner blonde in Japan, someone mentions it, or tells me I'm so gorgeous/sexy and they're so jealous, or they brag about having a blonde friend to their friends and family (my friend literally sent me a text telling me about how he bragged to his family that he made a "beautiful blonde friend" to his family over winter break), etc. I met this guy and his friends the other day for drinks at ハチコ前 in Shibuya (I only knew him) and he was like this is Melissa! And everyone was like whoaaaaa and some were like, nervous to talk to me, and they'd be like treating me like a site of wonder or some goddess or something... so weird. It makes it really easy to talk to people though cause they usually want to talk to me, at length, especially if they're drunk www
More on this later! Need to sleep, then write reports tomorrow. I planned to write my reports with my friend Takashi earlier tonight because we both have a lot of work and we don't look forward to it. So we're going to do them together tomorrow at the same time and maybe it'll be less boring. D:
Oh, met a friend earlier tonight as well from Double Dutch club, her name's Mayu... Super nice! We went to a dinner-like izakaya and had a drink and nabe and cheese/edamame gyoza... 本当においしかった! But we were both really sleepy and so we ended it and then I came back and worked A LITTLE and then went to Midori's to meet up for another little dinner and fondue. The fondue totally failed. It was nice though, it was me, Midori, our mutual friend Mika (who's one of my favorite japanese friends I've made yet!!!), Midori's friend Shui-ichi (ie Ted, lols), Kalau, Yassin, and the friend I invited, Takashi. I'm glad I invited him because he said he's super shy, but this was like an event where everyone could speak Japanese, so I hope he wasn't uncomfortable. I really like being friends with him cause he's such a nice guy, so I wanted to invite him!! He invited me to his christmas party too and a live in February on the 15th. Maybe I can make it.
I'm not sure if I even want to go home. If I do, I kind of want to change my plane ticket. D:
We'll see. I have so many traveling desires, and going home for the first two weeks of February just seems like a bad idea... I just don't want to!!
I felt like that a couple times, but really, lately I've been realizing I've made some good Japanese friends. It's nice. I'm learning about japanese culture, doing fun activites, and learning some japanese from them. Along with this, I've also realized that my 留学生 friendships are quite important as well. Even though I want to actively make a lot of good Japanese friends, my relationships with other exchange students is quite important because they are in the same boat as me and they're nice to turn to when I am feeling lonely or culture sick or just wanting to speak English.
I think I've gotten better at maintaining Japanese friendships now though. At the beginning, after some event, or clubbing, or whatever, I'd get all of these numbers in my phone in a language I can barely read (okay, I can read some Japanese, but names in Kanji are extremely difficult) and then I'd maybe follow up with one or two people, but it was hard to remember everyone and I'd get a call from someone later who I couldn't remember and didn't remember the name of so it was super embarrassing and nothing ever came of it.
Now I know that the best form if you want make someone into a friend is to text someone the day after meeting them, promising to hang out or do something, or maybe even making plans then! People are extremely willing and happy to meet you, especially if you're a foreigner and you can speak some Japanese (if you don't speak Japanese, of course you're still interesting, but I feel to a certain extent you will never get involved in any Japanese social circles because someone will always have to be translating for you and you'll never know the actual personality of someone else in their native language (believe me, people act completely differently and say completely different things while speaking japanese as opposed to english).
I may have a bit of an advantage (understatement) because I'm a white, blonde american who speaks some Japanese and has social skills and a love of music and goes to Keio and etc etc... I have a lot of things going for me here. I have a lot to talk about. People are always suprised by me. And think I'm "チョウきれい", but that's another subject entirely. I really need to write about flirting with Japanese guys sometime... It's a worthwhile subject to write about it.
I also really need to write about the sentiment of being blonde in Japan. It's a weird phenomenon that I'm experiencing. It made me not want to go back to brown, at least while I'm here. It's like I'm beautiful and magical just because I have blonde hair. People will openly stare (this is a)because I'm a foreigner, but it's also b)because of the hair), I've gotten hit on in the train, on the street, in bars (DUH)... but the amount is a little overwhelming. And even when I don't think anyone is thinking about me being a foreigner blonde in Japan, someone mentions it, or tells me I'm so gorgeous/sexy and they're so jealous, or they brag about having a blonde friend to their friends and family (my friend literally sent me a text telling me about how he bragged to his family that he made a "beautiful blonde friend" to his family over winter break), etc. I met this guy and his friends the other day for drinks at ハチコ前 in Shibuya (I only knew him) and he was like this is Melissa! And everyone was like whoaaaaa and some were like, nervous to talk to me, and they'd be like treating me like a site of wonder or some goddess or something... so weird. It makes it really easy to talk to people though cause they usually want to talk to me, at length, especially if they're drunk www
More on this later! Need to sleep, then write reports tomorrow. I planned to write my reports with my friend Takashi earlier tonight because we both have a lot of work and we don't look forward to it. So we're going to do them together tomorrow at the same time and maybe it'll be less boring. D:
Oh, met a friend earlier tonight as well from Double Dutch club, her name's Mayu... Super nice! We went to a dinner-like izakaya and had a drink and nabe and cheese/edamame gyoza... 本当においしかった! But we were both really sleepy and so we ended it and then I came back and worked A LITTLE and then went to Midori's to meet up for another little dinner and fondue. The fondue totally failed. It was nice though, it was me, Midori, our mutual friend Mika (who's one of my favorite japanese friends I've made yet!!!), Midori's friend Shui-ichi (ie Ted, lols), Kalau, Yassin, and the friend I invited, Takashi. I'm glad I invited him because he said he's super shy, but this was like an event where everyone could speak Japanese, so I hope he wasn't uncomfortable. I really like being friends with him cause he's such a nice guy, so I wanted to invite him!! He invited me to his christmas party too and a live in February on the 15th. Maybe I can make it.
I'm not sure if I even want to go home. If I do, I kind of want to change my plane ticket. D:
We'll see. I have so many traveling desires, and going home for the first two weeks of February just seems like a bad idea... I just don't want to!!
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