成人式 terror

You know that terrible feeling, the tightness at the back of your head that spreads to the sides, crushing with its evil grip..

It's how I feel now,riding this bus all by myself to an important japanese coming of age event. Surrounded by girls in beautiful kimono,i wonder if I am even worthy of entering the same place as them right now.I don't fit in in the least, and my friend who said he would come because he was also invited decided not to because he doesn't own a suit. I don't own a kimono either, but i'm brave so i figured i'd go. I'm going to be strong and hold it together, but I chose to come to this event thinking I would be okay and strong anyway... but it's hard.

This bus has completely come to a stop, too. No traffic moving in either direction. We'll see how it is when i get there!