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I am feeling stressed and depressed.
It's about two weeks until I am going to Japan.
I am just feeling like I need to talk to somebody, but it's so late I don't want to bother any of my close friends. And Max is asleep. :(
Mostly I just want to complain to Max, because I am in love with him and I miss him right now and I just want to hear his voice. And I am fucking PMS-ing up the wall and I am sore and tired and sad and overly emotional but I don't care if it's just my period making me sad. I am overwhelmed. I also am feeling like I should have spent an extra week in Santa Barbara. I miss it already. I only spent a week and a couple days there cause my mom kept pressuring me to come back and fill shit out, but I honestly didn't need to come back so soon, she was just tripping out and thinking I wouldn't get any of my shit done and my room isn't clean and blah blah blah blah dee blah. Fuck this shit. I hate being here. I just want to cuddle with Max right now.
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I feel stupid for leaving santa barbara, and I also feel stupid because my lifeguarding job reduced my hours this week because I was late to a shift and they COMPLETELY overreacted and thought I hadn't shown up but this other girl wanted to work anyway so I just let her (she called me) but they thought I wasn't going to show up at all so they FUCKING reduced my hours and now I only have three measly shifts. I can call people to get more shifts but it really doesn't sound good. I am FUCKED. I thought I was going to work so much more this week. I am PISSED.
And Ocarina of Time is a fucking hard game. It is fun to accomplish things, and I feel accomplished, but I am just too tired to handle the Forest Temple dungeon. I am tired. and PISSED off at fucking Evan, Julie for taking my shift and making it sound like I had forgotten my shift, and Derek for just being a complete dick and yelling at me the other day for no reason. Now I feel uncomfortable at work. Great.
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I need to clean. And relax. And forget about this shit. I am so annoyed.
I miss Max so fucking bad.
Japan better be fucking WONDERFUL. I have been putting up with shitty-ass paperwork and stress from my parents for at least 9 months. FUCK THIS SHIT.