Nihon ni ikimasuuuu! (First day)

On the airplane to Japan! I think I have about an hour and a half to go. It’s nice because I got to move into an empty seat near a window, so now I have space and I can see outside and I’m not squished next to my dad. Excellent. My back hurts though, especially a spot that I think I pulled/strained in my lower left back- it’s all the fault of my damned suitcases- I hope bringing everything I could think of that was able to fit into two suitcases wasn’t a bad idea. We’ll see when I have to lug everything around Tokyo.
Anyway, I’m finally starting to get excited. It hasn’t really hit me yet, but I think once I get to Japan I will be very interested (yet weighed down with suitcases!) ack! I finished reading The Lord of the Flies on the flight, which I loved. It was very fascinating. I haven’t ever really read anything like it before. I especially enjoyed the psychological and philosophical themes delving into the origins of the defects of humanity and human nature as created by society and personality… and how personality relates to society and your place and view of society. Fascinating stuff. The last 20 or so pages were especially gripping for me, due to the desperation and pure wild horror of the chase and manhunt and the collapse of the order of this society of boys. Really cool. And frightening. It has made me a little wary of human nature, but it is also a great point for reflection. I’m glad I read it on my own and not for school like others. This way I really enjoyed it. I think I enjoyed reading about war, humanity, and wilderness, but only when it’s done well. And oh it was wonderful indeed. A bit too descriptive at parts, but in other parts, that same description really brought the island and the boys to life. Also, I was quite sad when Piggy died. I really felt bad for him, from the 2nd page of the book until the page on which he dies.  oh well. He’s a fascinating character. I also sympathized with the asthma and identified with his smarts.
Anyway, I am going to try and study some Japanese so I can actually remember how to speak when we get there.
I’m actually feeling better now since this morning. I was surprisingly pretty depressed about leaving the United States, especially since I realized that I forgot/didn’t have time to go to the store and get more makeup and face wash… Those are like the only products I really use… It’s kind of a shame that I forgot them. Maybe my mom will send some to me. I hopeeeee so. She mentioned sending stuff, even though it is slightly expensive, so I think she will send me it if she has something else to send (like the shoes I wanted from Macy’s). So realizing this kind of got me down, since I doubt I will find it here.. Maybe one of my friends who is coming to Japan can bring it, like Grace. It’s kind of sad how attached to these brands I am, but it’s what I know works for me. And it’s important to me for my face to look good (since I have acne and previous intense acne skin problems, now I just have scars and occasional acne).I have a container of each, but that only lasts so long.
I cried when I left,… I was feeling pretty depressed because my dad was being mean to me about how much stuff I brought with me and how much it hurt me to carry it. When you’re packing for a year and you know shoes and clothes as a general rule don’t fit you, I think it is necessary to bring everything you will need. That would be foolish otherwise. My dad is just a stupid asshole and he has a completely negative view on everything. ;/
I also had mixed feelings about leaving and I hadn’t really gotten that face stuff and blah blah blah… I missed Max too and I wanted to call him but I had no way to (gave my cell to mom). But now I am feeling better… I had some red wine (alcoholic drinks in one serving sizes are completely free on international flights, which I did not know, and they definitely didn’t even think about carding me.) Anyway, it’s time for dinner, and I must choose between a turkey sandwich and teriyaki with veggies… I think I’ll choose the thing I won’t have for a while..mmm, turkey. Anyway, wish me luck in the Tokyo airport/subway/train station/city/etc!! Here I come, Japan!!